AHHHHH ! Guys I am completely freaking out ! Alright so Monday I didn't touch my draft because I figured I needed a break from it, so I'd work on it and polish it up today (Tuesday) . Bad choice let me tell you.

So I'm looking over my draft and doing some revisions, but then i start to cut chunks out of it and then soon I look and I've gone from ten pages to seven, seven pages ! This is how I always get I feel so good about my work and then i second guess myself and end up ruining it. ughh. I feel that my argument is common sense and that I am not creating any new knowledge. I really wish we had had a conference before and after drafts were due, I guess I could have gone into office hours (which I've done) but I guess I didn't because I really felt like I was heading in the right direction. I just do not even know what to do right now, I sent Dr. Lorde and e-mail but I sent it pretty late and besides it would be really difficult to help my current situation over e-mail anyway, but seriously why does this always happen. I just wish writing didn't scare me so much, I do not wish I was world best writer, or anything close to that I just wish i could write without freaking out like I do, JUST FOR ONCE. As I've explained in a couple posts and to those of you who know me personally writing is a huge source of stress for me, it throws my stomach into knots and makes me light headed, it's not that I can't write it is just it scares me I guess you could say, what a strange thing to be scared about right? Alright well I better be off none of this is getting me any closer to getting my draft polished up and rewritten I guess you'd say.

Hello there everybody !

Sorry I haven't written in so long, things have been pretty crazy around here. Hmmm now where to start? I think I last left off saying that I was working on my bibliography, which I finished and turned in last week. My Tentative thesis that I put on there and so far is still my current thesis is " The media plays off insecurities of women to get them to want to strive to become what they see in advertisements." I feel that as my draft progresses that will change but at the moment that is what is it. Let's see what else do I have to update you on? Well I have been working on my rough draft and trying to get that ready for Wednesday, I'm not sure how polished it will be but I'm sure trying. I have come up with so my questions and am just itching to have my conference with Dr. Lorde, I thought about going into her office hours, but I suppose I can wait a week because then I can see if I have anymore questions and then just ask them all at once, and who knows maybe as I go on I will be able to answer the questions I have now and not have to worry about asking them. Oh my well I better get back to my homework. I realize I am a couple entries behind but I promise I will catch everyone up on how my paper is going in much great detail and soon as i can even catch my own breath, man these last two weeks have been so full, I cannot wait to just be able to sit down and have just a little bit of me time.

toodles !

Well Hello There Strangers,

Spring break is coming to a close and of course I am not ready to go back. As for my paper progress I have accomplished little. (Big surprise) I have however made progress on my Biblography. It is due on Wednesday and I am super super nervous that I have missed things, I do not want to be one of those students who ends up owing points. I still have to re-find past sources, but just a few so nothing too major. One thing i did get started on my paper was the outline, the skeleton is looking good so now I just have to add to it and put in my research and I should be well on my way to getting my draft written. After a week of relaxing then pressure is starting to build, which is never a good thing. I just need to take it one day at a time but as that due date gets closer and closer my stomach is flipping and flopping. I feel ready, but am I really? I hope Dr. Lorde is ready to have me at her office hours these next couple weeks. Well I should probably catch up on my sleep so I'm ready for classes tomorrow, oh boy it's going to be a longggggg day.

Goodnight.

To complete this assignment I will have to use the books and other sources of material I have found in my research folder. It is time to get on to finishing up my bibliography, once that is complete I will have to go back over all my research and root out what I plan to actually use in my draft and what i do not. In an earlier blog I had mentioned that I had chosen four commercials to analyze for my essay. I will have to look up websites and see if I can find them online to add them to my bibliography page and have them at my disposal so I can refer to them quickly and easily, rather than waiting for them to be on television (not that is so hard considering I see them ALL the time). Though I am feeling the pressure of starting my esssay I do not think it will be as stressful as I am making it to be. I feel I have enough research and information to get a draft written, however as I begin to write I may find that I need to do additional research. Next week is spring break, giving me time to relax as well and giving me a great deal of free time to begin and make major head way on this project. I am not sure if anyone is still reading this due to the topic of this blog, but I will continue to write on here for those of you who are still loyal ;)

This week our first prompt this week is to analyze project five, this is because there was such confusion in project 1. I feel that i have a better grip on what project five is calling for than with project one. The use of definitions gives a great help to outline the project. Through research I will be able to use what I have learned as well as the sources I have found to argue my point, or what will become my thesis. At this point I am still working on my thesis. As we learned in class the two parts of an argument are to make a claim and then give support for that claim, and this is what i intend to do in the project. This sheet given for this assignment is very easy to read and understand able, which are qualities I hope to have in my paper. The big project is hear and to be honest I am starting to feel the pressure, I think I have everything I need I just need it all to come together for me now.

Well My proposal has been turned in and I am waiting to see if what I got on it and to see if my topic is approved. My research has been made easier now that I have gotten a more narrowed down topic and I have even chosen my commercials to analyze. I have chosen four commercials, two directed towards men and two directed towards women. I will analyze these and use them as examples for my essay. For the men I chose to use a hair growth commercial and a male enhancement commercial, and for the women I chose two make-up commercials. . These types of commercials play off the insecurities of men and women to make them feel the want to change, and in order to make that change they are tricked into believing that they want to buy these products.

So today I met with Dr. Lorde and we discussed my proposal and topic. She suggested that i take out the whole section on subliminal messaging, I had done some research on this but not too much so it will not be a huge loss. While talking about my topic Dr. Lorde said i should narrow my scope further. She suggested that i pick a couple commercials or ads to analyze for my apaer, and include in the appendix. After the meeting I do not feel quite as worried, before i was quite worried that she was not going to accept my topic. In class we did peer reviews, I did not get too much feedbakc from my reviewer so I will just have to use my instincts on my revisions, I think I have an idea of where I am headed with it.